T minus 14

So I keep circling like a dog looking for a place to either pee or lay down. I can't tell. I'm just that excited.  Many of you know that I've had a really shitty winter and spring for so many reasons and I'm looking forward to some "get away" time and "adventure" time and "go see the unknown" time.   I feel like the stresses in my life are going to make my aorta burst and I know of three folks  (and perhaps a dozen who I think this applies to) who would absolutely just think that was the best thing in the world to happen.

Tough shit... I'm not going anywhere soon so you're all stuck with me and my life changing journey.

Now back on topic.  I don't get to go on vacations. I'm a full time mom/wife (yes to two different beings), have a full time job, and run a horse farm. It's an act of fucking congress to get out of here.  Yet I think it's all falling into place. Like some psychotic cozmo's (pun intended).   I've done ALL the prep I can do on my bike. I even left it out in the rain on purpose to wash it. I know, but come on, when else was it going to clean itself?   Bad choice. Now my cb has decided it wants to take a dirt nap.  I can hear everything but I can't say anything.  I actually think there's maybe nothing wrong with it but the rest of my "posse" came over and sabotaged it so that they wouldn't hear me jabber on for hours on the trip.    We'll see if we can fix this over the weekend.  If not, I'll look really ridiculous riding my bike with a megaphone yelling "hey Goldwing riders. I know you don't need to stop but I NEED GAS".

Truly and honestly. I'm embracing to my deepest fiber the idea of meeting my birth mother.  I cannot wait until I can get off my bike in Boulder, MT and just say "Honey... I'm Home!" (well maybe not those words but you get it).  I want to know my roots, my heritage and utmost just hug the living hell out of such an unselfish woman who gave birth to me.  I don't think she has any clue how important she is. I can't even begin to understand the anguish she must have felt giving up her baby and wondering for 28+ years if I had lived or died.

This July I am taking more time off than I have ever taken in my whole entire working career.  I think it will feel like when I was a kid in summertime.  First a trip with my family to Basin Harbor Club in Vt to preemptively celebrate birthdays and a semi family reunion type thing.  Then I come home, have three days to pack and then I'm off for my journey.

Have I mentioned I can't sit still?  I just can't wait to see new things, learn new things; hell I'll even try the rocky mountain oysters if that's what's going on .. You know. .When in Rome!!

I've never seen big sky. I've never seen canyons. I've never seen prairie dogs, Mt. Rushmore, Yellowstone, Glacier, Niagara, etc.   Oh and have I mentioned I've never seen the SPAM museum?   again.. When in Rome!  

So the joke on SPAM is that we are staying one night in the hometown of SPAM. It also happens to be the night that I buy dinner for everyone.  SPAM smoothies  for all!

seriously folks.  I can't contain myself any longer.  I'm jumping out of my shoes (or perhaps  they are SPAM sandals)

I've gone public

So tonight I told my mom (the one, the only, the one who raised me), that I am going to meet my birth mother in just less than a month.  It was over a sushi dinner at Mai Pearl with the whole family.  She amazed me not only absorbing the idea but embracing it. It was wonderful to know that I have support across the board.  It really is the understanding from her that I needed and that she was ok with all this. I know she doesn't like me on a motorcycle but she also understood that I am in good company and that this is really and truly a life mission I'm embarking on. I explained to her how this is a pilgrimage in so many areas: not just meeting my birth mother, but taking chances and experiencing new things and new places.  I'm so proud of her.  It actually made me feel that I could open up to her more about many other topics (who knows what but I'm just saying).

And thanks to my wonderful husband who supported me through telling my family.  He's my rock. In every sense of the word.

So my biggest hurdle has been crossed.  Now I feel I can do this trip with everyone's blessing.  I am so ready to go now.

I just wanted to say.  T minus 30 days and this couldn't come at a better time. Things around here are so chaotic that I welcome a long road trip and learning about my heritage.  I'm so ready to go.  Air seat for bike is here, roll bag, air filter, and ferry tickets across lake Michigan. So looking forward to some solitude on the roadway and exploring this wonderful country of ours.